Empty Words A Poem by Stephanie Lahart
Your words were
SO captivating
I believed every
word that you told me
Sweet
Kind
Loving
All the words
that I wanted to hear
But you knew
that, didn't you?
You knew I had
low self-esteem
You knew I didn't love myself
You knew I was young
and
You knew I
was just looking for love
But instead, I
got wrapped up into you
I lost myself in
you
I stopped doing
all the things that I loved to do
I poured all of
my energy into you
Put myself on
the back burner
Just to take
care of you
Just to be hurt,
disappointed, and used like a fool
I listened and
held on to your every word
Although I knew
they were ALL lies
My heart ached
to the core
My tears flowed
like a rapid river
And yet I stayed
and allowed you to hurt me
Over and over
and over again
Yep!
I allowed you to
mistreat me
I allowed you to
disrespect me
I allowed you to
steal MY joy and MY peace
I allowed you to
change the course of MY life
Literally almost
destroyed MY life
You told me that
you loved me
But your actions
told a different story
I clearly couldn't compete with your addiction to drugs
No matter how
loving I was
No matter how
much I supported you
No matter how
much I gave more and more of myself to you
Crack cocaine
had me beat
My kindness
My love
My loyalty
My faithfulness
My commitment to
you just wasn't enough
After years of
broken promises and broken dreams
I found the
courage and strength to let you go
That was the
best thing I could have ever done
I was finally
free!
Free from all of
your lies
Free from trying
to change a grown man
I was finally
FREE!
Free from the
headaches
Free from all of
the hurt and pain
Free from
feeling like I wasn't enough
Free from all of
the hell that I allowed you to put me through
Free from a man
that didn't even love himself
In the midst of
trying to save you
I somehow lost
myself in you
But thankfully,
I was able to push through
And love myself
enough to know what I deserved,
Much better than
what I was settling for
I’m stronger
I’m wiser
I’m a way better
me
I love myself
from the inside out
And I fully
understand that
You can’t change
anybody
I've learned to
love myself first
Take care of
myself
Be good to
myself
Protect myself
from people who don’t mean me any good
Be mindful of
who I give my heart to
And never ever settle for somebody
Who’s not
willing to love you back the way you love them
What a waste of time!
Time that I'll never get back.
Lesson learned.
Lesson learned.
Lesson learned.
No bitterness.
No resentments.
But a POWERFUL
lesson learned that I’m not willing to repeat.
Written by Stephanie Lahart
California Author and Poet
Connect with me on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram... I welcome it! #StephanieLahart
California Author and Poet
Connect with me on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram... I welcome it! #StephanieLahart
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